This is not the time to speak in abstractions.

I think my time in Southsea is about up, I've been there five years, and speaking purely about the town as a whole (and not my friends, whom I love) if there was genuinely anything magnetic and alluring enough to make me want to stay, I think I'd know where to go for it, and where to find it.
Sure, things are taking form and shape; new friendships, my two bands, and there's always going to be places like The Wedge and The One Eyed Dog which I know I will miss no matter when I leave, purely because of how they fit in with the person I want to be, but the core is this, that in order to become this person, I think my time is up.

I want to see the world, I want to get a job I don't hate, and at the same time I love being able to bump into people I know on random walks round town, and this tight little community I am part of, I want to be somewhere where not everyone knows everything about each other, and maybe even where no one knows me.

I have been offered a job in Crawley, where I'm from originally, and it sounds like something I'd like to do. It's for the local council, working alongside different cultures, and at the same time I would be assisting them in the town, so too would I be finding out more about their own lifestyles and beliefs and everything, and it all sounds precisely what I want to do. I'll be able to put my degree to use in a second role too, filming and editing various videos, which is also something I actually enjoy, as well as proving quite financially rewarding.

Doing this, it would be most sensible to move back to Crawley, and live with my parents, graciously rent free for a few months. Saving up all, and I mean all the money I make, would mean I would most likely be four figures up from my current financial state, and this in turn would allow for some travelling, and then, who knows where, maybe back to Southsea, maybe to Brighton, I don't honestly know.

So what I am trying and I believe failing to say is that to everyone in Southsea who reads this (and I know at least a few do), if I end up moving on soon, I don't want you to think that you aren't important to me, and I don't want you to think it was an easy decision to make. Working on the assumption that I leave, I will be coming back very often I promise. It's just there is too much I want, too much I need, and I don't see any of it where we are right now.