It's quite possibly retarded that it's taken something like this to sort me out, but I think I've found what I was looking for, or at least been reminded to get back on with that search. What I felt fleetingly for the first few times in memory, on a few occasions last year, has come back and it's ridiculous that it's taken this to get me back towards being in the state of mind I want to be in.

What I have right now:
The perennial taste of blood in my mouth.
A cut lip.
A black eye.
A grazed shoulder.
A grazed elbow.
A borderline immobile wrist.
One and a half missing teeth.
No phone.
The repeating phrase in my head 'It could have been so much worse'

What I don't have right now:
A girlfriend.
A job which I don't want to walk out on every day I am there.
A steady living situation.
The feeling that I am going anywhere in life.


What I am going to do next?
Change.

*If any of this seems a little garbled or hard to read; I've got a head injury, so fuck you ;) *